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Realization Vs. Revelation

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Location: st. louis, Missouri, United States

Full blooded St.Louis native. Born and raised. I consider myself to be unique. But shouldn't everyone. Clearly our differences are what seperate us and conversely our similarities are what bring us together. I would say i am pretty laid back. I live life like a book(trying to make it through without getting frustrated at the final result) Im cool and i feel like if i can be cool so can everyone else. Things go so much better that way. Compromise it makes everyone happy.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Infinite

Whomever, wherever, however, whatever, whenever, its all everywhere. And in saying that, I can honestly conclude my misunderstanding of the previous statement. Perhaps many may think they do, but thats just looking at the logical meaning. To completely grasp the concept, you have to break down the common, simplified equation. We learn this in math. We are given the solution and we are asked to perform the steps in between.

Since everything is everywhere, then the question is; where is everything? If seeing is believing then perhaps I don't see enough. However there are millions of things I believe that exist that I have never seen. Is it too hard to imagine that there is more than we can possibly know. Life experiences have led me to believe that even movies and television(the simulated life) can in fact be real. My approach will remain liberal. However I will keep a conservatively skeptical attitude before any actions are taken place.

Self motivation is needed to achieve anything. How many people have it? That answer's simple. Millions. How many don't. Millions. Thats the delicate, but hindering, yet necessary balance of nature. It's actually an easy concept; the difficulties lie in the fact that if not enstilled through the childhood by the parents, then it must gradually be self taught. Thus laziness may occur, or perhaps the child has a perplexing life. Too many inquisitions could lead to unfinished projects(trust me I know) I figure I know all the right questions to ask, but I ask too many build up questions. But to me, just being given the answer seems to easy for me. I need to be challenged. Perhaps if I ask harder questions; needless to say I am at times highly critical and seem blunt and aggresive with my approach. Honesty is what I was taught, so I rely on that in making my judgements. If I don't have the facts I will not speak on it. So because I have too much to say, perhaps I appear more intelligent than I should, yet they still don't acknowledge me as a creative source. They view me as the angry black man who is destructive to the situation. They say "he's talkin' like he know whats going on." So now I am forced to believe and react the way they condition me to. Perhaps not out of fear, but given negative reinforcement to exhibit certain behaviors in their presence. I speak from experience, but I encourage you to put your own life into the general situation of thinking for oneself. This government preaches Rights but interaction with everyday people can sometimes seem like really its not you who is important its the "greater cause" that matters. But who knows what that is. A government that says it is the open voice of the people yet truthfully only represented by one man. Look at the entire picture; No one really cares when a person dies, except those connected. However people mourn the loss of other people.(read 2x if need be...I did) How many people have died that you don't know and have never even thought about. Sure it seems highly unlikely that you can be introduced to an abundance of people in the minuscule time of life. But, looking at the big picture again, the world and its countries are ultimately divided. When the evolution of man takes us beyond the limitations of earth and the milky way, who will be chosen to lead earth or be the delegate of a world of divided nations. We live together except we live such seperate lives. It all seems to be a misunderstanding. We as individuals need to succeed, and we as people need to move forward, yet out individual self interest cause life to tango back and forth between positive and negative transition.

How's that for a break down? Just know that Everything is real. The unseen is the most commonly misunderstood concept of life. Thus not wanted to be focused on because knowlegde seems hard to attain. Attaining knowledge from nothing strengthens the minds capability of searching for an answer. The different concepts of life can help generalize situations. Once generalizations are made you attack specific sources and the process starts over once you realize mistakes. Then you execute what you have learned, thus becoming wiser and even more adept to problem solving and reasonable assessment of experiences.

Monday, August 08, 2005

Reverse Psychology

As of right now my love life is in horrible dismay. Either something is wrong with me or these young ladies now a days are just unguided and selfish...I am so expressive that I am particular in what words I choose to generate the appropriate statement and induce a reasonable answer. I thought being open and honest was what all relationships were based upon...I cant believe that so many superficial and artificial things are weighed so heavily upon in relationships. Whatever happened to spending nights on the phone having deep and possibly intimate conversation...now it seems that you and your partner can't predict eachothers actions because you are lying to each other and not allowing the other to know who you really are...but he's got money, a tight whip and some rims...I guess that justifies it...perhaps this is just in my generation of young african americans...I see this shit and it makes me fuckin sick(excuse my french)
Then you get these girls and their minds have been twisted and clogged with bullshit that these dumb ass jerks keep feeding them...so when the nice young man enters the picture, he may be liked but she says "oh we cant date...im not ready for that...i dont know what i want(i hate that one)...yet they entertain the young man and now he feels he is being led on...I've met so many girls that are now close minded because of what one jerk did to them...clinging on to him even when he still shits on you(not in the literal sense) Im am completely frustrated at this aspect of my life...Here I am constantly self checking, trying to smooth out any difficulties that I may be creating...I dont place all the blame on anyone because I am not perfect...I dont even get mad anymore...it doesnt accomplish anything...So I will be as everyone else appears selfish, egotistic, narrow minded, self centered and seeking their own self interest...So here I am single, alone, desolate, individual, companionless, sounds like fun huh?


I yearn to like and then to love...perhaps I spend to much time trying to make others happy...